Great time with Ghadaf

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I often view hanging out as an obligation 3.

havent a clue what that means but it sounds great :)

But im hurting so much. I was raped and abused by two men i thought loved me. I love him so much, i cant be with anyone else. Help me plz :'( He has told me him and I will never be together again in the way i want. It hurts, iv been tru hell and back twice, i keep giving but never received. The main reason why he wont take me back is coz my dad and bro beat him and wants revenge on my bro. Why??? SO we slept together, i missed him so much and i didnt no what else to do. Im so close to hurting myself. I told them it wasnt he who beat me up and i was at a club and there was a fight and i got trapped in it. SO now we're sleeping pals, it hurts me that he is goin out and might be chatin up and laughin with women but for sex he'l come to me and thats all. Im worth so much then to just be used for sex, but thats the only way i get to see him. A month ago he beat me up so badly, and tried to kill me because i didnt want to tellhim the truth about my ex2 who raped me. I finally said i need to move on and i started going out with my friends and had fun. I'm goodlooking, i have a pure. I love my ex, i cant bare to see him speaking or being with anyone else, coz in my heart i know he is the only one for me. Should i? loving, kind, gentle heart but all i get is hurt!! I want my ex back! SO that day he beat me up, i finally confessed what really happened, he had a knife to my neck. For two weeks i begged him to take me back, he called me the worst of names told me im ugly and made me feel worthless. I told him that its ok and i was sorry i lied. Who would want me? What would you do? how do i get him back? The following night my dad and brother came to beat him up because my friend from work told them what happened to me. I did tell my ex that my ex2 raped me but everytime he asked me about it i kept changing the stories about how it happened because i was too afraid to go through it in my mind again. I thought i could get him back this way. The next day he after he woke up in the late afternoon, he tol dme he was sorry and he couldnt believe what he did to his "baby" and etc. When will i be appreciated and loved and not hurt? The next day my ex told me he doesnt want anything to do with me or my family and he called me names. On saturday he came to see me and he said he is sorry but will never take me back but we can be friends with benefits.